What cancer does to you

Today is my birthday. This birthday is very different from last year’s birthday. Last year I had just had the second chemo infusion on my husband’s birthday and my birthday was one of the dog days. One of the days I wished there was such thing as coma therapy for chemo. What a difference aContinue reading “What cancer does to you”

Adventures in Chemotherapy

After the initial surgery my cancer was typed and my nodes were checked. I had a micromet in a single node. That meant chemotherapy. My initial plan was not to get cancer, second was to only need surgery. The results made me think that maybe I shouldn’t have opinions about what was going on inContinue reading “Adventures in Chemotherapy”

Thanks and Silver Linings

You know the song–you take the good, you take the bad, you take them both and then you have the facts of life. I grew up watching that show. I liked watching it but didn’t really identify with any of the characters, but I would sing that song all the time, everywhere. As a kidContinue reading “Thanks and Silver Linings”

Fierce for answers

We told our daughters about my cancer diagnosis over a long weekend. We had come to some level of acceptance and presented the girls with the facts and that the prognosis was all good. Surgery to remove all cancer, not likely to need radiation, chemotherapy may happen depends on what they find during surgery. ThenContinue reading “Fierce for answers”

Rote versus Elegance

I have taken two business math classes in my life. I am positive I missed something, couldn’t tell you what, but I could work the problems and come up with the right number, but it didn’t make sense, I didn’t internalize it, own it, or try to make it elegant. I just did it byContinue reading “Rote versus Elegance”

Jackson Pollock and the first days back to work

I wasn’t prepared. I wasn’t prepared at all. There was no way to prepare, I can’t give you any advice on how to prepare for the first day back to work except know that you won’t be prepared at all. Even then you won’t be prepared. I love hugs, the first few days back IContinue reading “Jackson Pollock and the first days back to work”

Living Ketogenic

Cancer as a symptom of something else. Those were intriguing words to hear. Remember the Copacabana song? I try my best to keep fear at bay– and even away, honestly. Researching and learning help keep the fear away. When my oncologist said that I needed to get within the normal BMI range to reduce myContinue reading “Living Ketogenic”

Would you rather

Have you ever played the game would you rather? It is usually a party game with two choices given by the player whose turn it is. For example, would you rather be kissed by Bradley Cooper or Brad Garret. That isn’t so rough is it? Either one would be fun in very different ways. GettingContinue reading “Would you rather”

Being strong all wrong

When I feel the need to be strong for someone else, anyone else, that need can be overwhelming, and block out all reason. As a parent I often feel the need to be strong in difficult situations for my daughters, to set a good example for how to be an adult. I wonder fairly oftenContinue reading “Being strong all wrong”

Fearless..Hairless..Whatever

I went to high school in the mid eighties.  In the mid-west.  We did hair BIG.  By big I mean we used Aquanet by the case full to make and keep our hair BIG.  There were times water would bead off my big hair.  My bangs added like 4 inches to my overall height. IContinue reading “Fearless..Hairless..Whatever”