Chemotherapy is awful. Don’t get me wrong, I am cancer free today because of chemotherapy. I wouldn’t wish chemotherapy on anyone. I pray that chemotherapy becomes something less awful in my daughter’s lifetime and that they never ever need it because it is awful. Today I was reminded of the terrible time between the thirdContinue reading “Waiting for last chemo”
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Play today pay tomorrow
Normal daily life. What exactly is normal daily life? I know it when I don’t have it, and don’t necessarily recognize it when I do. During chemo I prayed fervently that this would never become normal. During the normal times I know that I am nowhere near grateful enough. It takes longer for me toContinue reading “Play today pay tomorrow”
What you know
Ever felt like you didn’t know what you didn’t know? Or that you only knew enough to be dangerous? That is the feeling when you get a cancer diagnosis, amplified by a substantial bit. The big thing about all of this is that you don’t know a lot about the diagnosis, but you are theContinue reading “What you know”
Cake and more cake
Our family has a birthday season. Starts mid October and ends with the New Year. In that time we eat four birthday cakes, celebrate Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year’s Eve. That is a lot of celebration in 74 days. We typically celebrate with food and dessert. The bigger the birthday the more outrageous theContinue reading “Cake and more cake”
One of those days
Today we got a flat tire on the highway, caused a back up due to gawkers, my apologies to all who were impacted. My husband put the spare tire on while we on the side of the road in record time. Less than an hour later the car battery died. My husband had to walkContinue reading “One of those days”
Word loss & cancer meds
I attended a memory fog class before going back to work. A single class for memory issues makes me laugh, I wonder how many times I went….Don’t get me wrong, it helped, I took notes and brought my husband and friend, between the three of us we got a lot out of it. I keepContinue reading “Word loss & cancer meds”
Seeing the Doctor
I am used to being audited from coming up through the lab and then quality operations manager, audits are a way of life. I used to refer to the fall as audit season because we would be audited by companies we tolled for, ISO 9001, 14001 and TS 16949. It was really a way ofContinue reading “Seeing the Doctor”
Anger with a side of cancer
There is something very primal felt when hearing a cancer diagnosis. Something deep within, something animal, something… else. It isn’t anger yet, but it is going to be. In the doctor’s office it is just starting to awaken. It starts asking questions, questions the doctor cannot possibly know the answers to. Is it because IContinue reading “Anger with a side of cancer”
What cancer does to you
Today is my birthday. This birthday is very different from last year’s birthday. Last year I had just had the second chemo infusion on my husband’s birthday and my birthday was one of the dog days. One of the days I wished there was such thing as coma therapy for chemo. What a difference aContinue reading “What cancer does to you”
When the fighting re-starts
An interesting phenomenon occurs when there is cancer in the family, the push-back and bickering and fighting stops. It just stops. You don’t miss it at first, you don’t miss it at all We have three loving and wonderful daughters. They pick at each other, they fuss and fight and are just terrible to eachContinue reading “When the fighting re-starts”
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